I’m so afraid to be paranoid
That I ignore the obvious.
Each attempt to express the void
Makes me nervous.
Worst deal ever - is to trade “today” for the expectation
Which I invented to myself.
As a reconciliation.
And I choke on every fantasy
Where My freedom is a matter
Of your resentment, regret and
Anger.
Will I feel better?
Music & Lyrics © Esin Sergeev 2022